We are deep into the holiday season and I am just coming up for air. There has been a lot of completion and a lot of fresh starts. I guess I’ll just say, there’s been a lot of living going on. Even though my head is up, I am not sure where I am or where I am going. I have heard similar stories from quite a few of you. The good news is that Solstice is coming up on December 21st at Noon:15 EST.
I know we are, ideally, being quiet and reviewing our lives. I’m contemplating on the go. I don’t even have patience to watch my favorite TV show (and no, I won’t tell you what it is.) I have also been caught pacing while reading a book. Those in the know have shared that there are astrological reasons for this over abundance of energy. I don’t care. I just want my quiet, pre-Solstice dark of the year back. I want to feel stillness on the Earth, calmness in the Water and peace in my soul.
Hmmm…this sounds like I’m having an energy tantrum and…I am. I believe that we are entitled, from time to time, to not be mature. Not too often, but once in a while seems like it would be OK in the whole scheme of things. Besides, a tantrum every so often clarifies one’s intentions and purifies the heart….
Whew! Thank you for holding space for that outburst. I’m much better now.
I can get back to being an adult. With a little planning, better boundaries, some self-forgiveness and a glass of eggnog, I think I can handle the rest of the season. That is not so say that I won’t be glad for some days off with a little staring out the window and a long walk on the beach. I would like to, at least, know the general direction of my life, again.
So, there will be no Ho! Ho! Ho! in this household. My cats hate those antler head things and I was caroled out before Thanksgiving. The celebration here will be sitting down reading a book with a cat on my lap. Yes, there will be giggles with my kids and rich, engaging talk with friends. Still, an abundance of silence is at the top of my wish list.
I wish all of you a joyful season. May you celebrate in the way that nourishes your heart and soul.